I honestly have no idea what to write sometimes. God is doing so much in my life at such a fast rate it is hard to keep up. Since coming home from Orlando and entering a season of dilligence and obedience, God has provided SO MUCH. What I am doing is so "counter culture". What I am doing with my life goes against the status quo. But what I am doing with my life will hopefully bring others to heaven. That is my ultimate goal for my life to be a testimony to the grace and power of Jesus Christ.

My friend who is on staff with Campus Outreach in Melbourne Florida is doing some lets say some unexplainable things. At FIT he is discipling and growing strong relationships with international Muslim students from Saudi Arabia. He wants to share the gospel and Jesus Christ, grow in fellowship, graduate, and then show them that God wants to use them in amazing ways. He has a vision of them going back and planting a church in Saudi Arabia! I in 10 years hope to be a guest pastor at that church.

I know that someday in 3-5 years I will be preaching the gospel and leading a church that will be "the light of the world" for a broken dark chaotic world.

My generation

I have heard so many pastors tell me that my generation or the next one is going to be the one that restores the high power and honor of Jesus Christ in a broken chaotic world. The kids of yesterday that grew up on the Internet War on Terror and now the Great Recession are some of the hardet workers in modern history. There is an increase number of students graduating from college. About 30-40 percent of my friends are going to graduate school. I myself plan on going next summer. Ok seminary kind of like grad school. At our fingertips thanks to constant innovation, we have acess to a wide array of information. If you want to discover anything or anyone about the world, you are a few clicks away. You can get to know a person before you even meet them thanks to Google Earth, Facebook, and Twitter. You can find out their likes/dislikes cirlces or friends, and what they like to do for a living.

While this is HUGE for the Great Comission and spreading the gospel it has created an atmosphere of loneliness in the 21st century. The norm is to get through life by yourself and figure it out on your own. However my life and so many other goes against the status quo. Sure I do have an IPhone, Twitter, Facebook, and all of that jazz but what I do with my life down to the daily decisions is inter-connected. My close circle of friends and brothers/sisters in Christ cherish community. Look through the book of Acts and you will find that the church is not a brick or dynamic over budget ministries. They are a body of believers. A body of believers who get in the word together, pray, and suffer in the name of Jesus Christ. That group grew from 5 to 5,000 and so on. It then moved to the ends of the Earth and 2000 years later is "the light of the world."

So what does my generation need. They need close real authenticity. They need men and women who are going to be bold enough to point them in the direction of the cross. They need men and women who are not going to gossip about their struggles and past burdens. They need mission based organizations who are going to motivate and push them to the ends of the world. To sum it all up they need ACCOUNTABILITY....FELLOWSHIP....AUTHENTICITY.......AUDACITY

JU Lacrosse

I have never felt more convicted about a group of guys or an organization to spread the gospel to than this group of men. Since meeting up with them for volleyball and only speaking to them for a number of minutes, there is a DIRECT need for the love and grace of Jesus. From talking to a lot of folks on campus there is a definite reputation that follows the guys whether it be good or bad.

Most of them are straight up jacked and out of state. A number of the students are from the north so 7 times out of 10 have never seen a true example Jesus Christ. So that they have never been exposed to true love. They might know Jesus as a historic figure but I want to show these boys Jesus Christ as the PERFECT LOVING MAN WHO DIED ON A CROSS FOR US TO LIVE A LIFE OF JOY AND GRACE FREE TO CONDEMNATION OF SIN. Sure there is a lot to surrender but one thing I love about athletes: they are DILLIGENT. In whatever they do they do well. There is disicpline there is dedication 120 percent everyday. It is hard for even an average skinny golfer like myself to go get in the gym. Its kind of like "the dungeon". But when you begin to be dilligent in the small things, the big things day by day hour by hour month by month become atttainable rather than impossible. Starting this weekend till I get on the campus I will be praying for these guys individually every night.

A new man a new mission

There is something about the grace and love of Jesus Christ that is powerful to those who are willing to come dirty busted and broken to the cross. When you pray repent and give full control to Jesus Christ he will use you in uncapable ways. I came into this project with a lot of anxiety and control issues about the present and future. God in 8 weeks not only shattered every one of those but provided me with a plan and calling that is one of a life time. I get to disciple and build the next generation of Christ laborers at Jacksonville University.

A call to ministry is tough. It requires complete surrender of all worldy desires and patience. It requires a special type of man or woman who is willing to do whatever it takes to spread the gospel. However there is no need to worry or have anxiety because the battle over sin has already been won. When man conquered the grave the war against Satan is won.

It is time to fight cry and spread the gospel in a broken chaotic world. I hate to sound so dark at times but I have witnessed first hand two ends. On one end there is sin darkness brokeness and absoutley no joy. Sure there are temporary pleasures and emotions of happiness but for all of those years there was darkness and questions that I began to ask myself. However on the other it is costly it is sometimes painful but joy and happiness in Christ alone will reign forever.

Besides in Revelations chapter 7 for those who reach heaven, our flesh will be left behind and we will be crowned with a white robe of righteousness that is clean because Christ died for all of our sins in heaven. Can you imagine walking on this world not having to deal with anxiety fear guilt sadness depression from the present and past? That is heaven and I am a citizen of heaven who is captivated by king and kingdom. And the highest form of selfishness for those who haveexperienced the love and grace of Christ would be to go to heaven alone.

Here We Go

I have been stripped of every worldy passion and idol this summer that has gotten in the way of me glorifying God. In four weeks alone I have come closer to Christ, ended a serious relationship, and answered a call to ministry for the rest of my life.

I will be going on staff with Campus Outreach at Jacksonville University for the 2011-2012, and 2012-2013 school year. From there my goal is to attend Southeast Baptist Theological Seminary and pursue a Masters of Theology. I will not let anyone or anything in this world get in the way of pursuing my dream. I hate to sound selfish but I have a job to do and that is build the next generation of Christ laboers. I have a job to share the gospel. I have a job to solely rely on alone and nothing of this world.

Summer Project

In one of the hottest summers and craziest cities where people from the international world travel to, I am witnessing a true move of God like any other I have been apart of. Just alone in two weeks I have seen four college students including my roomate fully surrender their lives to Jesus Christ. However being down here has costed me a lot. It cost me though a lot of comforts. I do not hold the fate of so much in my hands however it is in the hand's of a awe loving God who continues to give me patience. Even patience working in Harry Potter land. I have ever ever been a fan of the cult like scrapboooking but the food at Three Broomsticks taste marvelous.

There has been a lot of kingdom sweat. I have pretty much been a greenhouse of growth for my faith in Jesus Christ. I have been on mission trips, done discipleship classes. However not soley taking two months out of my life, leaving all the comforts of home to come down here. As of July 28th I am unemployed, the market for teachers is not looking to good. However there is ALWAYS as a market for laborers for Christ. It takes work it takes sacrifice it takes getting out of your comfort zone to bring even closet friends to the gospel. There is this lady at church who my girlfriend told me about. She prayed almost 40 years for her friend to come to Christ. I will try my best to keep everyone updated on what is going on.

Everything has been so uncertain. Everything has never been up in the air like this. I am literally walking by faith alone and day by day hour by hour is a test of my willingness to keep walking and trust in God. Imagine walking in the dark to a destination that is unknown but you know the journey is going to be rough and difficult. Imagine not knowing how you will get there when or if you will have the resources to do it. You might have an idea of what it will look like but even the best vision can not prepare you for what lies ahead.

We walk out of darkness and into light when we choose to go deeper in our walk with Christ. No matter where we are or how big the mountains God is the one who will be the light at the end of the tunnel. The journey will be tough even the most hardend people on this journey will break but, true disciplined cheerful people of character will make it.

Lord right now I pray that no matter where you might guide me in life that I would do the simple things that matter. That I would graciously give to those and help them walk to the light of salvation. I pray that I would council them on your teachings and guide them through their hardships. Even when my flesh my grow weak I still have an ability to inspire by living a life of character. Even though there is darkness around me, Jesus Christ is growing in my heart. I want an audacious faith that is fearless and does not go complacement or reactionary because the journey or race gets hard. When the hard times come I will continue to fight the good fight of faith.

Whether it is Costa Rica, Paxon or any other school, Campus Outreach staff at JU, CSX Aetna I pray that you would continue to prepare me and guide me to wherever you take me. I need to be a cheerful giver, I need to be more disciplined in the daily affairs of my life. Breaking a 5 wood against a tree because your golf game isnt up to par is not the way to go boss.