I guess maybe right now with only 6 to 7 weeks left in the semester, there is still much to be done. I honestly feel that God is working in many of my brothers heart however someone or somebody needs to show them how to change their heart and walk in the footsteps of Jesus Christ. Somebody needs to show them what the power of Jesus Christ can do. Somebody needs to offer hope and prosperity of the gospel. Somebody needs to be that beaken of light in the dark. Somebody needs to show them even when the outside world of this campus is caving in....they NEVER LOSE HEART.

What does not need to be shown is someone who brings his own brother down. Someone who is not bold. Someone who has the potential to do great things all in the name of God but does not follow through. 6 months later 60 years later this mission field will not be here. This mission field I think is unique because my words and lasting impressions can set the fire of Jesus Christ in someones heart and last them an entire lifetime. Someone who has never seen God can see God through me, AND THATS IT. That is all they might need. It is time to stop get rid of the excuses, its time to get rid of the arrogantness. Jesus I pray for repentance. I pray that as the broken man I thank you for allowing me to serve you. I thank you for giving me the purpose and believing, even when I have given up on myself.

TFM

A website that is a blog and twitter for fraternity men is really consuming a lot of my brothers life. It is ok to be arrogant, it is ok to haze, it is ok to get drunk, it is ok to be a rich elitist. Being "fratty" by the way you act and dress is the norm in my fraternity. Being so consumed and surrounded by this, it has rubbed on me. I am honestly guilty of all of these things above. For this season unlike Costa Rica FUSE or Celebration Church this is my mission field. Out of all of them it has been the hardest even when I have a great relationship with many of my brothers. I pray to Jesus Christ that I can break this stereotype. I am not a fratdaddy I am not a elitist rather I am a unstoppable worshipper and follower of Jesus Christ. We are often judged by our actions words facebook statuses and by the way we dress. Do not be something or somebody that God has not called you to be.

I pray to God almighty that I can get back to what has been such a strong point of progression in my life. Prayer fasting and serving like the character of Jesus Christ. My friend if a man can do that the traits words and actions that illustrates someone will replicate someone who above all else walks in the light of God. When I preach to by brother "lets be humble and kind in all of our relationships both inside and outside this fraternity." Then next minute I am at Applebees talking crap another fraternity guy......wow that's showing character.

Honestly last week was the hardest week for me I can remember in years. It was a battle to make it day by day hour by hour but I got through it I conquered another mountain. It was because Jesus Christ is so in me I can conquer any mountain. One of my brothers who I went to church was involved in a DUI homicide. My dog died and I missed work because my truck stalled on me. Everything that could go wrong went wrong. But I never gave up because I had amazing people surrounded by me to pick me up. God has blessed me with so many spiritual folks on fire for Jesus to help guide me and lift me through tough times. IO Alan Marsh Josh Turner Kyle Johnson Tyler Young John Jordan my girlfriend the list goes on.

The situation with my brother is rough. I have never dealt with any sort of situation like this before. But I know that god will prevail through my friend's life. I know that if my friend and brother continues to pray and stay strong God will come into his heart. He is looking at a lengthy trial and time in jail, which I could not go through myself.

I started asking myself that could of been me. All of those time I drove home drunk I could of been in that boat. I could of killed somebody and and been in jail for 10-15 years of my life. Last week I was in tears everyday. Last week I could barely walk to class and function as a human. But the best way to overcome this from a friend's perspective is to move on. Let God take care of the situation and pray for healing and strength in my friend. I WILL NEVER LOSE HEART I WILL NEVER EVER GIVE UP ON HIM I WILL BE AT THE TRIAL I WILL KEEP IN CONTACT WITH HIM I WILL PRAY FOR HIM AND FOR HIS FAMILY EVEN IF HE IS FAR AWAY I WILL VISIT HIM. I WILL NEVER EVER GIVE UP ON MY FRIEND BECAUSE JESUS CHRIST NEVER GAVE UP ON ME.

This is not about me, this is about Jesus Christ and the hope grace and refuge we can find in them. I just pray I can find ways and words to say to help grieve with my friend and fellow brothers. Thank you Josh Turner for giving me the words to say. Thank you for believing. Thank you for pouring your heart out to this college student. Thank you for talking to me after SUB30 and making things line up.

I have been pushed to the brink with the current situations. I have never been so drastically moved by the grace of Jesus Christ in my life in the past couple of days. I hit an all time low with a couple of severe incidents this week. But I never was alone. I had friends brothers a pastor and spiritual leaders give me fire and inspiration back. I NEVER LOSE HEART. Because he died for me, and I will continue to serve him. Because there are soo many people in this world that need his love. Imagine a world with no crying no pain no suffering no weeping. Imagine a world of no slavery genocide and war. Because my friend that is what heaven is going to look like. It says in the bible that 1 day in heaven is better than 1000 of our best days on earth. I can not wait. But I still have to bring my friends and family to the truth....the ultimate truth. Walking the narrow path takes commitment patience grace and dying to your wants and needs daily. But if you never lose heart and walk by faith, Christ renews your soul day by day. Times get tough there are so many questions to ask but you have to keep on pushing.

No longer do I carry the wants of my flesh on my shoulders, I carry the wants and needs of the people in my life. And I have the most amazing thing to reveal to them. A relationship with Jesus. To show them grace and a life of purpose.

MY BROTHERS

I can honestly see within the past couple of weeks my brothers coming closer to God. I know some how some way that they are starting to pray and thank him for the many blessings that he gives us. But my main goal is to bring the focus to Jesus Christ. My main goal is to teach them about what it truely means to have a personal day to day hour to hour realtionship with him. Because my friend that is how we can............above all else walk in the light of God. And I hate to say this I do not know what others think......if you do not have Jesus Christ you have no purpose. If you do not have Jesus Christ I hate to say this it breaks every nerve in my body but you could spend the rest of life in a bottomless pit. If I were to say this to some I might lose friends brothers and even family. But he is the way the truth and the life. He is the good shepard who never leaves his flock. He is one man who endured hell for 3 days and then rose to heaven. He is the man who took this man from a jail cell to Costa Rica to Africa. Get him just a small chance and he will show you the great and mighty things for which he does not know.

Why Bother

1. Why bother going to work everyday and being humble and kind when everyone else is not doing the same
2. Why bother to above all else walk in the light of God...never lose heart....even when every man friend and family member is perishing
3. Why bother to go to church when I perscuted the church of corruption almost a year ago
4. Why bother living a life of integrity when everyone else around you is getting laid and drunk left and right.
5. Why bother standing for God
6. Why bother showing unstoppable encouragment when people ignore it


IF THERE IS FAITH IN ANY GOD THERE IS GOING TO BE FEAR ALWAYS PLANTED IN THE WAY OF YOUR DREAMS ACTIONS AND ASPIRATIONS FOR GOD......IT IS THE ENEMY

One Life One Chance

We pass through this earth only once. We only have one life one chance and spending eternal life with the king of kings and lord of lords. I want to live to be 100 years old. Thank you God for repentance and salvation because I have messed up a lot. Thank you for Jesus Christ giving me a second chance at life. And a life with purpose. When I reach the gates of heaven I want every thought fiber action and word to be in the honor of God. I want to tell him "God I never did give up I never quit because Jesus Christ didn't quit on me in saving my life" Time after time I got drunk, time after time I cursed and did everything for myself. He never quit in paying the ultimate sacrifice. When he knew about the pain and bloodshed he would have to go through, he kept pushing. Day by day second by second minute by minute.

I hate to be blunt but sometimes it is the ultimate truth. I see so many people spend an entire lifetime living for the wrong purpose. If they only knew about the power in God. If they only knew that THE SAME POWER THAT CONQUERED THE GRAVE CAN HEAL ALL OF THEIR WORRIES FEARS IN LIFE. The same power that took a man from a jail cell, to Costa Rica, to Kenya in 2011. God has given me the power not to take baby steps but GIANT LEEPS. Giant leaps all for him in confidence day by day week by week. I honestly feel sometimes I am walking on a tight rope because I have accomplished so much in so little time. But it is not me. IT IS GOD MAN COME ON I PRAY FOR PEOPLE DAY AFTER DAY AND THEY STILL STRUGGLE. If they would just give God a little space. If you seek him you shall find him in amazing ways. Hes not in a secret hiding place. Heres what I did on January 6th 2010. "I said God I ask you to come into my life I ask that I can no longer live a life of shame and brokenness. I need you and I want to use serve you in amazing ways. Please come into my life!" And all of a sudden I dropped to my knees crying and crying......Give God a chance

Get rid of the ego

I have been so freaken sick and tired of people complaining about how bad we got it. How there is so much unemployment and the world is coming to an end. Well 9/10 people are still at work. Compared to 70 percent unemployment in Costa Rica. I love to study government and politics because I could never be a public servant. I would be the only one to actually "serve the public" and not serve the political party or supporters. NEVER MIX GOD INTO A POLITICAL AGENDA. Instead focus on trying to above all else walk in the light of God by the way you serve in public office. We should be held to the highest standard.